II have been doing alot of thinking about the season of winter many of us are in now.....both physically and hypothetically.

Winter is a tough time for many expecially when we experience losses like we have with Renee and like I have with my uncle last month.

I have even found myself asking Why ?

I know in many Christian circles one is practically condemned if you even ask God the question Why . Some are taught ....as I was ...that asking God why is a sin because you are questioning God's authority,,,Well I don't believe thats always the case.

I think of it this way you question him.....God is our Heavenly Father (for those of us who have excepted him as Lord and personal Saviour) we are his children and children are curious and ask the question Why constantly.

My own mother has even critisized me for asking God why he gave me 2 autistic children and for not titheing faithfully (which isn't my choice and is another topic I may talk about some other day)

I often think (and this could be paronoia on my part) that my mom thinks we have two autistic children and my husband is jobless because of the titheing issue and because we have both asked the question why....I tithe with my own money when I can.

Okay how in the world did I get on titheing anyway LOL!

Back to winter and the question of why.?

Winter is such a cold and often dismal season but God in his glorious splendor does provide the sunshine...we just have to be willing to look for it.and sometimes wait for it.

That is one thing I am learning to do..though it is very hard.

I would love to see us financially stable,my husband working and see less financial help from his parents......it can be humiliating.

Exspecially when my side of the family has the nerve to constantly try to tell me how lazy my husband is.......hate to tell you folks but the economy stinks right now,

Okay there I go chasing another rabit LOL!

Back to questioning God correct me if I am wrong,didn't Abraham, David and Job ....once question God ?

There again I think it's all in the way one asks the questions.

I don't think I am going to be struck dead for asking God why did he take Renee or my uncle or adoipted mother who passed away last Sept.

I know both my "adopted mother " and Renee knew Christ and are in Heaven and I will see them again......my uncle on the other hand I am not so sure..

So if one wants to get on me for questioning God about this winter season I'm in emotionally ect then go right ahead.

God knows my heart and he knows my deepest struggles things that I can't utter to anyone let alone understand.

Well thats enough of my rambling......until next time LOL !