It's been a while once again since I last posted ,due too my usual chaotic life which is slowly getting back to some normallity.

    I don't know who or how many of you read my blog or at least check to see if I've wrote another.  but thats okay I plan on keeping up with the blogging even if It's a month or more late from my previous posts.

    It's a good way for me to not only vent but  relax as well.expecially when you need a brake from 2 screaming autistic kids LOL !.

   With all the negativity in my life it was hard to look at the positive until recently.

  One positive is that are lease for the appartment is not being renewed thanks to our lovely neighbour has this passionate love for herself (I didn't mean that in the filthy sense) and  dosen't like kids apparently we are now looking at renting a house.

   With my husbands" part time" job ect it's easy too want to panic and go nuts as we still to this day don't know for sure where we are going to live ...but as my long saga says in the intro that I believe in God and believe he is going to provide for us as he has in the past.

For those of you who may stumble on this and choose not to believe in God don't worry I am not going to beat you over the head and cram him down your throat.

It's just that my faith in God brings so much comfort , and is helping me come to terms with the horrible mistakes I have made the past six months .

I am getting stronger and know that when I rise above all of the muck in my life I will be able to shine forth and help others hurting like I was.